Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Love
Hahahahahaha. My boyfriend is hilarious yet cute at the same time. Haha. He's sweet. And I miss him really bad. It's been months since I saw him. Hope he's coping well there. So lucky to have someone like him. Hope he makes it for B.A. Jy, mayalu! Goodnight, sukutay. <3
Monday, July 22, 2013
They say virgos fall in love easily. And I'm guessing it's true. The one whom I was thinking for a while is just a figment of my memory. I guess I have not been truthful to myself lately. And I have to say that I've really started to fall for him. He sees so much in me. He has been so supporting and encouraging and when people sees me as a stone in the mud, he makes me feel like I'm a lotus flower. When I'm class, i can't concentrate cos I keep checking my phone if he's texted me, when I see cook shows on TV, i think of what to prepare for him, when I see tourist destinations, I think of going to a cold country with him sipping some hot coffee and going back to the hotel room and cuddling to sleep with him by my side, I think of how our kids will look like, what type of house I will buy with him, OH GOD. I have so many plans that I wanna do it with him and I just hope that he won't lose interest in me like people did in the past. It's probably too early to think about stuff like this but I really really love and adore him. I'm just so happy he got drunk that night and confessed everything to me. Haha. He's so adorable and I see so much in him just like he says he deos in me. Though I think I see more in him. Why couldn't I meet him earlier, though? He's hundreds of thousands of miles away from me. I hope he stays safe there and gets into army. It sucks cos I cry to sleep all night because I miss him so bad. I keep telling myself that two years will pass very quickly but it seems as though time is mocking me creeping by. Sukutay. Chito aija. Miss you.
Thursday, July 4, 2013
I wish he was as close to me as the lip gloss on my lips
The first day I saw you, I was all set on not talking to you because you looked like Mr. Arrogant. But hey, appearances are deceiving and once you started talking to me, we sparked off with some thing I swear I never felt before. It was a good feeling. I wanted every single second of the time we talked extended to an hour. Or maybe forever. You were the reason I went to work with butterflies in my tummy. You were the reason why I looked forward to working as a shitty waitress for a meager part time pay. You were the reason I smiled during a shitty day at work. You were just someone I looked forward to talk to everytime I was going tor see you and you were the reason why I never wanted to leave the workplace though it was so shitty. My friends told me that you flirted with a lot of girls but I just think you're being nice to other girls. That day we worked together was so fun and I was scared I would never meet you again because I never got your particulars. I wish I did and I regret every moment of it now that I realise it has been over 4 months since I last saw you and I still think about you frequently. You seem to be on my mind a lot yet I have no idea where you are or what you are doing. Who knows if you're even single? Or that you even remember me? I can vaguely remember your face but I always recognise you instantly when I see you at work. I've not gone for work for a long time due to school matters and I'm not sure you're working there now. It's been so long. But I really hope you still work there because if I ever see you again, my heart will just do a somersault. It sounds retarded but really. You're so lovable. And handsome. And funny. And cute. I always talked about you to K and she would always help me to look out for you. Haha. We were just talking about you in TDR when you appeared in your stewarding shirt and you looked so handsome that day. I don't know why. It was probably because you approached me and only me. You are always good-looking but I felt special that day and I looked at you from a different way. It felt like the most cutest guy that would take years to recognise someone ugly was finally happening. It was like, the unexpected was happening. I felt so happy and my face was red all over. K was so happy for me. Another time I was so happy was because I waved at you and your friends pushed you towards me and said, 'Go to your girlfriend la.' Haha. I was blushing actually. Just that I was facing away from you. And I would always stay in TDR because I knew you would be there. I would stay there and wish that time traveled slower because I never wanted to stop staring at you. It all sounds like classic, boring, cliched love bullshit. I'm not the type who really liked relationships and thinking about all those lovey-dovey stuff but ever since I met you, my thinking has changed. Like, I used to hate couples showing PDAs in public like hugging or anything but now, all I ever think about is hugging you, cuddling with you everyday, watching funny movies with you, cooking with you, staying at home and ordering pizza while playing a board game or watching tv, I just want to do every little thing together with you. I want to be part of your life; big or small. I remember how I cried because during the last day of work (I wasn't going to work anymore due to school) because I really wanted to see you but my manager let me off late so I missed you. That was the worst day because I wanted to get your number. It isn't ladylike for a girl to ask for a guy's number but I didn't care. I would have done that ten times as long as I got your number. But the goddamn manager let me off late and I didn't get to see you. Because of that day, I've lost contact with you. On 16 July 2013, it will be officially five months that I've fallen for you. And it's been very long since I last saw you. Too long. I wanna meet you so bad but I could never find your social network website names no matter how many names I tried finding. If fate really allows it, then I will wait until it brings us together again. 16/2/13 Izzudin.
Sunday, June 9, 2013
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