Up till today, I've always wondered what love truly means. But love doesn't mean anything. Because love means everything. Love is basically everything you would ever wish for. It's what keeps you thinking about nothing except that particular person. When he's not with you, you think about every single moment you spent with him. And when you're with him, love is a pain in the ass because you don't get to spend quality time with him because you keep thinking about what will happen when you have to part for a while. You become crazy, like I just did. I just laughed to myself remembering all the funny things he said to me. And I smile when I can finally remember his face. I don't know why, because this is the first time something like that ever happened to me. Because I can't seem to remember his face all at once. It takes time for me to assemble his cheeky grin, his cute eyes and his charisma together, then I can finally remember how he looks like. Yet, when I forget his face and when I see him, I recognize him instantly. Thinking of him makes my whole body go hot with anxiety and when I know I'm about to meet him at work, my tummy is filled with butterflies, ants, ladybugs, whatsoever. And when I see him, my face goes RED. All my friends say so. I get SO HAPPY! like nothing can ever chase my happiness away; like nothing else matters more at that moment. Though he's not always with me physically, he's with me mentally almost all the time. Before I sleep, I always reminisce about everything that happened in the day. That's when I think about him. I think about every single detail that concerns him. How cute he looks in his attire at work, that cute, cheeky grin he gives, that charismatic attitude he has, his charming sense of humour, basically, HIM. And when I wake up in the morning, I always think of something special to wake up to so that I'm more positive. Then I realize it's not something; he's someone. I mean, c'mon! There's so many possibilities to think about first thing in the morning! And I think about him.
Why have I never felt this way before? I'm so unprepared yet excited.